Almost 2 weeks ago, I turned... erm... the new 30! I'm not gonna lie, I was a complete wreck emotionally. Despite it being the new 30, it is not easy to turn that age! All joking aside, when I actually turned 30, ten years ago - it felt monumental in a specific way. It made me look ahead and think about what I can do before I get too old. Now, it feels a bit more like "What have I done so far?". I can only imagine at "the new 40", it'll be something like "No seriously, what have i done so far?". If you turned 50 recently, please comment and let me know what thoughts ran through your mind.
Well, I had tons of thoughts on my actual birthday - and I won't get into them here. But as I'd mentioned, the primary thought was "what have I done so far.... in life". And this is the very question that propelled this blog into existence.
It all started with a goal I shared with my friends a few months ago in the summer. My first step was to write the two INTRO entries to this blog. It was exciting because they were hiding in plain "site" (sorry, had to :)) because nobody knew about it. After writing those entries, I told them that by the time I turn 40, I wanted to have written 40 blog entries. I wish someone told me I was crazy, cuz after 2 days of announcing that goal to my friends, I was the one who told me I was crazy. It wasn't that it was too much work. I guess I can easily pump out short paragraphs about things I like, but therein lied the problem. If I really liked something or someone... if I was a SUPER FAN, I wasn't going to settle for a quick little paragraph. I was going to put some TLC into it. I then realized that writing ONE entry a week should be the real goal. And even that can be challenging, having 2 kids + a full time job (and a half).
So, I started doing that. But then I ran into my long time archenemy: PERFECTIONISM
I even wrote in my 2nd entry that I just want to write for the sake of practicing my writing and take time to find my voice. Yet, with every entry I wrote - I would find myself keeping it in draft mode, making tweaks here and there. Save. Repeat. Save. Repeat. And to be honest I kind of wanted to keep it all in draft mode.
But tonight, I'm hitting "publish". On all of the entries I've written so far. I don't have too many yet, but I have a list of over 40 topics/ideas/people I want to write about. And as I keep my eyes open, and pay close attention to what I appreciate in life, I'm sure that list will grow.
If you follow me on twitter or instagram (both are @koochung) I'll be sure to post whenever I have a new entry. If the subject interests you, come on by for a quick read! And if you're a fellow fan of what I'm writing about and have more to add - comment away!
Here's to practice. Here's to publishing.